And despite all the physical and psychological hardships she routinely suffered (see synopsis), and her occasional traumatic encounters with drunken and groping priests, it would seem that life as a nun might *almost* have worked for her: The order was populated with such a broad spectrum of characters, ranging from the saintly Mother Bianca (who despite dying a slow and excruciatingly painful death refused to take pain killers because they impaired her ability to teach) to the sadistically pedantic and mentally deranged Mother Walter (who...erm...well, just read the book!) - all with their own differing interpretations of how to live the religious life - that I'm sure she could have fitted in somewhere. But what a tragedy that would have been.

In addition to the broad sweeping theme of the book there are numerous inconsequential details which to a lay observer are both fascinating and deeply weird. For example, when the postulants are decked out in high-heeled shoes and wedding dresses in preparation for the veiling ceremony, where they become "brides of Christ". The grainy black and white photo of the beaming author arrayed in this finery is crushingly sad.

There are also moments of joy and humour. One of the most moving passages for me occurred after the author had been elected by the order to study English Literature at Oxford University, and she was given her reading list. After years of living in an environment where the intellect was something to be despised, and with her access to literature largely limited to hagiographies, she was now instructed to read Jane Austen, Keats, Wordsworth and George Eliot...and moreover to enjoy it! I freely admit, it brought a tear to my eye!

Hardly surprisingly, starting at Oxford was the beginning of the end for her vocation.

The only minor criticism I have about this book is the use of US spelling and terminology, which at times I found quite jarring.

Unfortunately the follow-up book, "Beginning the World", now seems to be out of print. However, I've ordered a copy from my local lending library and look forward with interest to finding out what happened next!


Enlightening   January 26, 2003
 11 out of 13 found this review helpful

This book gives a rare insight into the world of a nun in the 1960s and the struggle to find true meaning in life and adapt to life as a servant of God.

It is as accessible as a well-written novel and is funny, emotional and heart-breaking in retelling Armstrong's seven years in the convent. Fascinating reading.

Very highly recommended.


Brutally truthful and completely honest   December 31, 2000
 14 out of 28 found this review helpful

At last someone has had the courage to stand against the prejudices raised by documenting the "darker side" of christian life. I admit there is not much material about the elusive God but it is brutually accurate in the description of self-torture imposed by christianity in order for them to maintain our support! An excellent piece of work.